tearful face and wide open heart....

This is a prettier and more presentable version of me after reading a quick email update from my friend/former employer/mother to the little boy in my heart.  In it she revealed that Gabe was looking at photos of Ryan and I and then requested that we hold him.  I am typing this between gasps for air, wiping away of tears, and taking care of the nose.  
Dear Gabe, 

I love and miss you dearly.  You have are one of my greatest teachers and greatest friends and  I love you simply for existing.  I adore your inquisitiveness, creativity, playfulness, and sweet, sweet nature.  My life is infinitely fuller and I am wiser for having known you.  Because of our friendship I have the ability to love bigger and more honestly than ever before.   As I write this now I am holding you in my arms and giving you a big squeeeeeze and each afternoon I ache to steal away just one cuddly nap.  

Love, 
Manda

4 comments:

Chelsee said...

Oh Amanda. I'm sorry. I know how important Gabe is to you. It is hard that you guys have to be apart. At least you know that he still remembers you and misses you too.

~Karen Michelle Bayard~ said...

I love you tender heart Amanda and I think both photographs are beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

Angie K. Millgate said...

AAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... okay... so my guts and heart just got ripped out by this reveal. What a poignant moment and I could totally feel it with all the momma-love in me. Wow.

Anonymous said...

Love you too, Nanna. Great talking with you. Let's do it again soon.
Love Gabe and Sarah

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