(re)connect

After leaving high school I more or less cut myself off from the world as I knew it. Feeling some sort of need to either find or reinvent myself I made no effort to keep in touch with those people I had connected with throughout my life. Even going so far as to making a story that I didn’t have anyone that really cared or was close to me anyhow. That story atleast made it easier to go away. I have to say that as lame as I think online networks generally are (myspace and facebook) I do appreciate them for their ability to reconnect me with those people I was so quick to cut myself off from years ago. Whether it is a casual hello exchanged or a slow reaquainting with one another I feel like I am able to appreciate all the people from my past more and feel lucky that the connection is not completely lost. As I have taken the step back from my past I have noticed the impact made and that each experience i have had has shaped me. What I once thought of as silly and superficial experiences I am now able to see as the learning opportunities they were. With the help of those rediculous networks I have found and been found by my past. Some people I am simply happy to hold at a distance, realizing that the lessons to be learned from them have been learned. Others I am finding I never truly saw or appreciated and am being given an opportunity to see them from my new perspective. Either way I now hold my past as a jewel within myself rather than an annoyance to be forgotten.



Specifically this reflection came about when I got to see a friend from years ago. Long since seen but not forgotten I am glad that I found Eve and had the chance to talk, share, and look back on our past for what it was. I value her for her creativity and sweetness and feel happy that a possible further friendship and growth will happen. To all of you in my past, I love and cherish you for all that you have been and may be in my life.